I've been thinking about something for a few days now. I want to talk about being who you are supposed to be/who God intended you to be. I know it has nothing to do with high heels, housework, or the 1950s but it's important.
I'm a follower.
That's just me. I'm not the leader type and I know that. The problem comes along when I try to be just like someone else, you know following exactly in their footsteps, or at least trying to.
I'll give you an example. I have a friend that is a fitness guru/healthy eating expert. She has four kids and is in the best shape of her life now. She's dedicated to working out, eating clean, and being the healthiest, most fit she can be.
I want to be like that.
She told me about this detox she's done and it sounded pretty easy. You eat fruits until lunch then fruits and veggies after that, all day, as long as they are raw, and you can eat all the fruits and veggies you want. BUT that's all you can eat. Do you know how much will power it takes to just eat fruits and raw veggies all day long? Especially when you have homemade brownies in the house?? I don't know how she does it! I managed to do one day; she's done like 7 days IN A ROW!
I'm weak, have little will power, whatever you want to call it because today I'm eating food, real food, probably not all that healthy food. And I'm going to love it. You know why? Because trying to be like her made me realize something.
I'm not her, I'm ME!
I need to stop trying to be like everyone else and just be the person God wants me to be.
My cousin is another perfect example. She's like a doctor, teacher, Martha Stewart and Martha White all rolled into one well organized, multi-tasking machine. I want to be just.like.that! She just graduated with her doctorate! She teaches nursing, works in the doctors office, bakes, crafts, volunteers and still has time for family and sleep. How does she fit all that in?! She's Super Woman, that's how. And I've tried to be Super Woman but I'm just not.
Who am I?
I am OCD. I believe things should be in the proper place with labels facing the same direction, organized by color, size, shape, and in neat rows. I procrastinate bad. I want to be better and do things early but I work best under the pressure and time crunch of a looming deadline. I get distracted easily (probably have ADD or ADHD, just not officially diagnosed). I can be lazy, okay, I am lazy. I kill plants, all plants, whether houseplants, outside flowers, or the fruits and veggies in my garden. I get an idea in my head and it must happen RIGHT.THIS.MINUTE! I don't like to plan and wait and work toward something. If I think it, I want to do it immediately. I jump in with both feet on projects, whether it's my desire to learn to sew or become an expert cake decorator. I like eating junk food like chips, brownies, and ice cream. I love painting and sewing.
That's me, not at all like the fitness guru friend or Super Woman, huh? Nope, but that's okay and I'm slowly learning that. It's okay to just be me as long as I'm being the best me I can be and being the me God wants not the me I think I should be.
Okay enough profound thoughts for the day, especially considering I'm writing all this at 6 a.m. before I've even had my coffee! WHEW! If this is the pace I'm setting for the day, I better go have that coffee now.
Tootles!
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